My realization.
I watched a video about drugs in my psych class. Then I suddenly realized that, I helped my parents make drugs. The video showed all these things that looked so familiar. So I thought back. I always stayed away from drugs because I knew my parents and brothers did it, but like I just suddenly realized that I helped them before. I was really young, my parents had me package them or help them make the pipes. I feel so disgusted with myself. How did I not realize that what I did then, was the thing I promised I would never touch? And sad part is, I remember my parents making me do drugs with them. I’d get sick. They’d tell me it would help me feel better. But it never did. I didn’t know what it was, so I thought it was fine. I thought it would help like what they told me. I feel so stupid. How did I just barely realize this. I feel so disgusted with myself. And how could my parents do that to me… Fuck, worst realization ever.
